Monday May 19, 2006
I had a nasty turn early yesterday evening, something non-fatally tummy-related, and was knocked sideways by it. Graham reckons it was something to do with the bottle of Lucozade I swigged for lack of wine.
“You’ve started an allergy to Lucozade,” said.
“You’re just saying that so’s I don’t pinch any more from your store.”
“Not at all.”
“Yes at all.”
I had to give in shortly after that and take myself off to bed. I had the most dreadful, restless, bloat-filled night, waking at frequent intervals and dreaming disjointed dreams of past work places and people.
When I woke this morning I was able to get going even though the bloat remained, painful and discouraging. We went over to B&Q at Graham’s insistence, to buy replacement flowering bedding plants for the pots out front and the borders out back. Graham’s still feeling weak and run-down but now we’ve got him off the medication, he’s swigging his way through a big bottle of Metatone and will be back up to strength in a day or two.
Shortly after we got home my tummy gurgled and I had to take myself off as the dam broke. That did the trick and I’m fine again now. The human digestive system is a sloppy piece of design, and it doesn’t improve with age.
Just now I transferred the journal file over for May 19, 2006. Yes, two years ago today. We were living in the caravan over at West Quantoxhead and I’d just instructed our solicitor to start the conveyancing process for our purchase of this house. I shall not do any more today.
Sitting here, thinking back to that time, I find myself strangely enlightened and discouraged at once. Somewhere in the past couple of years I seem, without realizing it, to have lost my impetus and much of my enthusiasm. That’s fine. Now I know that I’ve lost it I can work my way back to the point where it went astray and start in on the job of recovering it.
I don’t think that my ‘plateau of maturity’ has sagged without hope of recovery but I’m afraid it most certainly has sagged. I have the tools I need to get back on track, and none of them are Lucozade.